I am a selfish person.  I never liked to share my crayons.   I always wanted to be the line leader.  I question everyone.  I never liked authority.  I am terrified of everything.

Cancer.  

Abuse.  

Hunger.  

Flooding.  

Poverty.  

 

Donate.

Give?

Tithe.

Pledge?

Contribute.

Help…

how?

why?

when?

where?

what’s in it for me…

too busy…

no time, not enough money…

I don’t know what’s next for me.  What I do know is that I believe.  I have faith.  I always have, even when maybe I pretended I didn’t.  Or maybe I didn’t but God was there with me anyway.  This I know.

I’m fairly certain I am a late bloomer – in all aspects.  It has taken me a LONG, long, LONG time to realize who I am.  My self worth.  That my words, MY words, have an effect on people (not always good y’all).  That maybe I matter a little bit.  And maybe, just maybe, I can be a positive, creative, thoughtful, giving person.  That my kids will be proud of.

A BIG question is where to start?  Can I afford it?  How can I do anything to help?  Should I choose one specific area?  My time? or my money?  BOTH?!?

Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to do it. Proverbs 3:27

Yep, it’s not easy.  Especially if you are, well, selfish.  Like me.

But every journey has to start somewhere.  With prayer.  A LOT of prayer.  And really, action.  Taking that first step.  And maybe it takes a while to find your thing, but you will.  (honesty folks – I am talking to myself here).  A huge goal of mine is to get involved, whether it’s with Greer Community Ministries, or the American Cancer Society.  Whatever it is, we (I) have the ability to do something.  And it matters.  Just like we do.

Give generously to him and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to. Deuteronomy 15:10

 

 

 

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